Oct. 4th, 2012

Okay, I've acknowledged my problem, but where do I go from here?

I am so ridiculously annoyed at the moment and in general as of late. I'm almost always irritable over one thing or another. Most of it stems from my interactions with people, especially people that never seem to be wrong about anything. I personally have embraced acknowledging the problems I've caused and the fuck ups that have happened because of my missteps. I'm doing my best to have direct conversations with people when I am frustrated with them instead of just letting it build up and yelling at them.

But for whatever reason, there are so many people that are resistant to these steps that I am trying to take. I understand that people are under no obligation to give any fucks about anyone other than themselves, but why must some of these people try to hinder my personal growth in the process? Why must my busybody coworkers muddle in my affairs or lose control so completely over their own, that it starts to effect the people around them?

I personally like to, and need to, have have limited contact with people when I am not required to do so as outlined by my job description. I like having my own space and not talking to other people and falling in love with books. I relish my love affairs with imaginary characters and television shows and movies. I find in my own company the understanding that is so totally lacking from the people in my life a lot of the time.

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Oct. 1st, 2012

Well, it's been a while, journal.

I find myself in such an odd position these days. I am so utterly disconnected to everything, because I have moved away from any and everything in life and online piece by piece. When I think about engaging more, I either feel overwhelmed or am reminded why I do my best not to care about others or be friendly to anyone.

Most of all, I just feel tired and worn down. I am reminded each day that it is best to stay at home and read books, than it is to log on to websites or have conversations.

I have worked so hard at blocking out everything, that I am finding that my memory is failing me. I am often lost and confused and can't remember conversations that I've had with people, because I don't care to do so, I suppose.

I'm stuck in this place of Otherness, because I can see issues around me with certain clarity, but I feel absolutely powerless to effect any real change. Because no matter how hard we fool ourselves, every system put in place in all parts of the world are not meant to be short-circuited and I just feel like there is no point in trying to do anything most days.

So, how does one carry on when you feel like nothing is worth doing?

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Apr. 5th, 2012

Step One: Secure table Step Two: Lose your mind


Let’s talk about a suck that I’m rather late on typing up (few weeks old), but isn’t quite past its sell-by date, shall we?

We’ll start with how NOT to dine at a restaurant.

When going out for a meal, it’s customary to enter the building, be seated, order your food, eat said food, and get the hell out. What is not suggested is everything single thing that Crazy, Racist Lady chose to do.

She came in while we were semi-busy with a family of six. Everyone but her chose to go to the restrooms to wash their hands. I asked her twice if she was sure that she didn’t want to go to the restroom to wash up too, because her table would still be there. She insisted that she was fine, because she had wet wipes.

Everyone following thus far? Good.

Onward to this new level of crazy! Kinda long, but it comes with pictures! :) )

Crossposted: From the Customers_Suck comms over on LJ.

ETA: Finally getting around to typing this up got me talking with my co-worker last night about this mess, and she reminded me of a few other choice words this woman had. To be honest, I can't believe that I forgot it, but it's been a bit since it happened and she had a whole lot going on.

But my co-worker, B, reminded me about her demanding to know if we had "another restroom." And she even told me, which I hadn't known before, that she had been pestering her server (who is awesome and mostly unflappable, but was reduced to swearing after minutes of this woman's time) about "another restroom." She actually said the words (more of less), "I don't want to use the same restroom as them.

What the fuck? Imma just block the rest out, too, I think.

Feb. 25th, 2012

Really, Sir?

Crossposted: customers_suck

Note: Felt like posting this here, too.


Have you guys seen this yet?

What is with all of the high and mighty jerks lately? What happened to those random rich people that would leave crazy tips and would be highlighted on the evening news.

Now, for my own recent/on-going sucks. Swear warning goes here. And omg, this got long fast! warning goes here as well. )

April 2015



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